My Broken Heart Vision

Photo CR: Peter Lundell

I was awakened late tonight by the thoughts of a vision I had on Monday, January 11 about someone I know very well. I initially shared the vision with our ministry Prophetess. And as we prayed, we received an interpretation of my vision. It was not my intention to share this vision publicly. For my team typically pray over – for, against, with, or however God places it in our spirit to pray concerning dreams or visions for however long it takes. But concerning this vision, I had no intention to share it publicly, which is the case with most of my dreams and visions. Until I was awakened tonight by the thoughts of this vision, I had a week ago. As I initially laid there in my bed, trying to determine why this vision was heavy in my spirit and what God was leading me to do about it. I felt compelled or this strong pulling to go and write. And as I am writing, I am slowly seeing what God is leading me to do concerning this particular vision.

So, I will share the content of this vision. However, I will change the name of the actual person this vision involves to a fictitious ​name. If this person reads this post, that person will know that they know it’s about them, for God will reveal it to them in a convincing way. 
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Why we have dreams and visions

​As I mentioned before in a previous Facebook post a few months back, I dream A LOT. In fact, I strongly disagree with a statement one well-known evangelist made concerning dreams. He said, “most dreams are just that. They are just dreams.” He concluded that most dreams do not carry any real weight of importance. This may be true for this evangelist or the average person. But this is not the case with God Almighty. One of the main ways God communicates with His servants is through dreams and visions. And as we know, for those who are open to it, God has a lot to say and show His servants through dreams and visions. In fact, the Prophet Joel spoke of the value of dreams and visions to the LORD. He said, “it shall be in the last days, God says, ‘that I will pour forth of My Spirit on all mankind… and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams” (Acts 2:17; Joel 2:28). And it is certain, the last days.

​God wants His people to be in the know as well as to understand the current time and season so that His people know what to do, which way to go, and who or what to avoid. Dreams and visions are a major pathway God uses to communicate such matters to His people or even people in general (that is people who do not believe).

That is the purpose of most dreams and visions. At least, the ones that matter. They give us insight and wisdom in matters – people, places, and things (circumstances or situations). So, I do not take any of my dreams or visions lightly. I pray in all of them and allow God to show me the value of every dream or vision I have. I will be the first to admit that I cannot record all of my dreams or visions because again, I dream a lot and have quite a few visions (especially when I am communing with a very spiritual-minded, well in tuned group of individuals). And I will admit that not every one of my dreams or visions has any significance. Some do not have any value or weight. They are just that – just a dream. But most of my dreams and visions, whether great or small, short or long, whether they are about someone or something I know personally or not – most of my dreams or visions are of some value. Many of my dreams and visions have given me insight into peoples’ personal, professional, and spiritual lives. Some of my dreams and visions had allowed me to reveal things to people about upcoming situations that either provided them some clarity, helped them to navigate through some stuff, or helped them to avoid some possible disaster. My dreams and some of my visions have helped to protect several of my friends and family members who heed them from dangerous situations. Some of my dreams and visions have shown me beautiful things about people and places I would not otherwise know about. But they have also revealed disturbing things about people and places that broke my heart and gave my ministry team a heavy weight to carry when dealing with such things in the spirit through prayer. Ministry can be truly disappointing and emotionally heavy and overwhelming at times.

Dreams as well as visions, to those who are open to it, are beneficial in that these ones are allowing God not only to use them but to entrust them with such sensitive and precious information. Things that are of great value to the LORD. These ones that are open to it, are certainly helping the LORD to carry the burden of weighty things in this world that need prayerful intervention for solutions and breakthroughs.

So, this vision I am about to share concerning a person I know personally broke my heart to see and experience it. But I believe God wants me to share its content for two purposes.

1. This friend (if I can say that), secretly visits my Facebook page from time to time. And right now, from what the LORD has shown me, this is one of the few outlets this person has to obtain truth that is unbiased, unfiltered, and is about no-nonsense. I will speak and do exactly what the LORD says concerning people, places, and things, whether people agree with or not agree with what I say or do. I will say and do what the LORD tells me, for I am accountable to God and not to man and their biases and limited, tainted perspectives. 

2. I believe through this divine vision; the LORD will speak to others. 

Remember, this vision is about an actual person that I personally know and had some dealings with over a long period of time. Yet, I do have some limited knowledge of this person’s personal and professional background. However, I have changed the name of this actual person to a fictitious name in order to protect the identity of the person. And yet, Holy Spirit will speak to this person as this person reads this post. 

My vision

​On Sunday, January 10, I was praying with my ministry partner as we were packing, preparing for our corporate relocation. And for days now. Two weeks and 3 days to be exact, Susanna has been lingering in my spirit but I do not know why. For a few weeks now, I noticed she has been visiting our social media page frequently lately. During this time frame, I elected to not mention it to Felicia, my ministry partner, although there was a part of me that felt that I should. So, today, I decided to mention it to Felicia to see if she has had any thoughts concerning Susanna lately.

After I told Felicia what I was sensing that was going on in my spirit concerning Susanna, Felicia decided we need to pray to see what God would reveal to us. As Felicia began to pray, my eyes were wandering around the room. Initially, I thought I was just having a hard time focusing. I was distracted by the many things that were in the room. But we learned later that these were things God was using to reveal to us matters concerning Susanna’s heart condition. 

Four visions

• Vision 1 - I first saw my granddaughter. I saw the three of us – Talia, Felicia, and myself in the kitchen praying. Talia had her eyes closed as we prayed but occasionally, she would peek to see what we were doing. She noticed that I had my eyes opened while we were praying. At the end of our prayer, Talia told Felicia that I was not praying because my eyes were opened. In the vision, I tried to explain to Talia even though my eyes were opened during prayer that I was still praying.  And then the vision abruptly ended. 

• Vision 2 - As I looked at the half-empty white bookcase in the corner of the room, I saw myself placing a matching bookcase on top of that bookcase. My right knee was on top of the bottom bookcase as I took an electrical drill to drill the two bookcases together. Once I was done, I stood the two mended bookcases upright. And then I noticed the scenery switched. Initially, when I was drilling the bookcases together, I was in Felicia’s old house. But when I stood the mended bookcases right side up, I was in Felicia’s new house.

• Vision 3 - In the third vision, I saw Felicia, and I was packing to get ready for our relocation. We were getting rid of everything we did not need to take with us. So, we were only taking things we thought we will use at our new location. But later I saw once we got to our new location, we discovered there were things we took with us that we no longer need or could not use at our new location. In the vision, we had kept the U-Haul truck we rented for one extra day. So, the things that we later discovered we did not need, we placed them in the U-Haul truck. Then the next day we took those items to the nearest recycle and trash drop-off. 

• Vision 4 - In the last vision, I saw Susanna’s body hovering up in the dark place. It was like she was floating in outer space, but there were no stars, no planets, or anything around her. It was pitch black everywhere. The only shred of light was a beam of light that was shining from the upper night sky, highlighting her body hanging on nothing in midair. As I watched from an above position, I could see myself standing where she was hovering and examining her. I was shocked that she was just hanging there. Her eyes were closed and her head was slumped downward. Her body was positioned in such a way that she looked like she was hanging on something, but nothing was there. Her arms hung in the air like a scarecrow hanging on a stake – shoulders up, but lower arms pointing downward. 

I kept circling around her because I was trying to figure out how in the world, she was hanging up there in the night sky like that. While she was hanging there, she never moved or talked, which honestly made me think about that Scripture at Psalm 115:4-8. 

Their idols are silver and gold,
The work of man’s hands.
They have mouths, but they cannot speak;
They have eyes, but they cannot see;
They have ears, but they cannot hear;
They have noses, but they cannot smell;
They have hands, but they cannot feel;
They have feet, but they cannot walk;
They cannot make a sound with their throat.
Those who make them will become like them,
Everyone who trusts in them.

At any rate, I never saw her even breathing. Then all of a sudden, as I circled around for the third time to her left side, I noticed about 40 feet or so in front of her, an object appeared in the night sky. At first, I could not make out what it was. It was just hovering in the sky pointing in Susanna’s direction. And for a long time, it was very still – motionless like Susanna.
 
Then, I finally was able to make out what the object was. It was a spear on a long pole. As soon as I recognized what it was, my spirit became very disturbed. My eyes filled with tears. I immediately become frightened and began to feel panicky. I was unsure what was about to happen. But everything in my spirit was telling me that this was not good – something was not right.
 
And then when I least expected it and before I could even react to it, the next thing I knew, the spear appeared in the center of Susanna’s chest – right where her heart is. I never saw the spear moved or anyone touched or holding it. I never saw anyone or anything throw it. It just somehow, like the speed of light, appeared in the center of her chest.
 
I was shocked. I just stood there at first in complete shock and speechless. I then slowly shifted my head more to the left to see the backside of her. And the spear went right through her chest, only the arrowhead can be seen on her backside. Then I came out of the vision. 

holy spirit provides an interpretation

Shortly after this last vision, Felicia finished up her prayer and immediately asked me what I saw. I share with her what I saw but explained I was not sure if the first 3 visions had any importance. But I described all four visions to her anyway.

After I told her what I saw, Felicia led us in prayer again to seek clarity and understanding from the LORD. And as she prayed, Holy Spirit spoke the following to me. 

Vision 1 - Like your granddaughter, we all need childlike faith and obedience to a fault. A child will remain faithful, obedient, that is loyal to a parent even when that parent may do things that are harmful to them. And we, as servants of God, need to have the same like faith as a child towards God. We need to be obedient and faithful to the things God calls or leads us to, to a fault – even when we do not understand everything God has led us into.

Vision 2 - When I saw the white bookcase, I saw myself adding another white bookcase on top of the other and then standing them upright. The bookcase represents what every Christian should build towards – building up what you have and making yourself sturdier and more stable. The drilling of the two white bookcases together and then standing them upright resembles a stronger and solid faith and confidence in God’s direction for your life.

Vision 3 - It is important as we move from one season to the next, we get rid of things that are no longer valuable or useful in our new season. We should not take with us, our old habits, old baggage, or anything that will hinder our spiritual growth. However, if you discover later in your new season that you took stuff with you that you do not need, we should immediately haul them away – get rid of them. 

Vision 4 - When I saw Susanna hanging in the dark sky and a spear pierced her chest, it symbolizes her broken heart. When I was circling around her, confused by what I was seeing and trying to figure out how the spear even was able to pierce her, this represented the fact that Susanna had not even figure out yet herself what is the cause of her broken heart. But her broken heart is due to her own demise. That’s why nothing else was around. The darkness or emptiness was due to her own poor decision making and failure to continue on the paths that God had shown her to go. When we failed to continue the course that God has plotted for us, it will always lead to our own destruction or in this case – a broken heart.